Do you believe in destiny?
Do you think that everything we do, we do it for a reason?
A lot of people would say no. I would say no too, from a rational point of view.
Still, sometimes we take choices, or key episodes happen to us, that make us take a certain path in our lives, a path that we didn’t explore before.
I think I had one of these “key episodes” when I understood I was a writer. You might say “yeah, whatever, deep down you always wanted to be a writer, you knew it, so the key episode is a key episode just from your point of view; it could have been anything.”. That’s because you don’t know about the key episode. And even so, this wouldn’t explain the fact that I don’t know what to write about.
Still, I am waiting for a major source of inspiration. It doesn’t happen to me all the time, to feel like writing. Sometimes, if I am in a good mood, or let’s say if I don’t have worries or thoughts that obscure my mind, I can see that things, even the simplest, are a source of inspiration. It often happens on the bus, at the end of a working day, when I am getting back home. There, maybe I am not so worried anymore (the working day is over and the rest of day is my oyster), and I see the world from another point of view.
Sometimes I think I could write a whole book about riding on a bus.
But how to seek inspiration? How to overcome that feeling of emptiness when we are in front of a white page? And, most important: why destiny? How can we understand what is relevant in what happens to us? How can we understand that something is not important, even though our mind tells us the contrary? How can we assume an objective point of view and take advantage of the signs we encounter without any kind of influence (not even our own)?
I do not have answers. I don’t know what I am supposed to do. And you?